Have you read/tried these?

....if not, why not NOW?!

“The less you think of yourself and the more you think of Baba, the sooner the ego goes and Baba remains. When your ego goes away entirely, I am one with you. So bit by bit, ‘you’ have to go: today your nose, tomorrow your ear, then your eyes, your hands, everything! So better think of me when you eat, sleep, see or hear. Enjoy all; don’t discard anything, but think ‘it is Baba __Baba who enjoys, Baba who is eating’. ‘It is Baba sleeping soundly’ and when you wake up, remember: ’it is Baba getting up!’ Keep this one thought constantly with you. If you do wrong, then think, ‘Baba is doing wrong!’ if you get a pain, think, ‘it is Baba having a pain.’ If you do all this sincerely, you will know something. Try to forget yourself and do all for Baba.”

From, The Avatar, Vol.5, August 1986, no.24